~The X-treme Files~

~ Monday, April 18, 2005

nuts... i've been going nuts... headsches re getting more and more common... not to mention sch work is getting more like ****

ws was depressed 7:33 PM

~ Tuesday, April 12, 2005

stupid...
i cant accept it...

ws was depressed 8:39 PM

~ Wednesday, April 06, 2005

damn everything... this miserable life of mine is getting out of hand. i'd reather discard my life than to manage it. afterall, we're gonna die some day.
i'm pissed...

ws was depressed 8:39 PM

~ Thursday, February 03, 2005

things re not right for me now, its all wrong. wad's wrong? many things re wrong. anyway, chinese new year's approaching soon. everyone's excited about red packets and food. well, im always sian about things and i cant be bothered about chinese new year. wad's wrong with me? even i dont know the damn answer. i live day by day just for? fun? maybe... everyday's sian and i cant deny it

ws was depressed 5:50 PM

~ Wednesday, January 19, 2005

had a bad headache after the 2.4km trial today, so sway and disgraceful... had to walk slowly instead of jog during the circuit training.

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who cares?

ws was depressed 10:20 PM

~ Monday, January 10, 2005

frustrated is wad i am now. why am i so bothered about it when its over? heh, i better face it sooner or later, s paper is not for me.

ws was depressed 10:58 PM

~ Wednesday, January 05, 2005

who knows wad the future holds? soon we will be laughing back at our jc days, just like wad we did for our sec and prim school. time really flies, in fact its flying too fast. soon we will get out of sch or college, find a job, get married, have children, grow old, retire, grow even older, become a grandparent, then die. when u re at your deathbed, u will think of the good old days u had when u were a child. if u were to become senile and cant remember a single thing, tats too bad. i often wonder how does it feel like to be dead. issit pleasant? or issit gonna feel terrible? for now im not gonna think much about it, thinking about death isn't gonna get me anywhere because im still alive, although pretty much of my brain cells are dead. am i an undead?

ws was depressed 9:45 PM

~ Monday, December 27, 2004

mahjong, an addictive game indeed. for the 1st time in my whole life, i've never ever seen them beg me to play with them, except for today. of course, i had to, 3 people playing would be odd, too odd. compromising tv programs to play mahjong was gay, i swear i'll never do tat again

ws was depressed 11:29 PM

~ Saturday, December 25, 2004

i don't know wad to do... heh
soon school will reopen and life's gonna be hectic once again

ws was depressed 7:41 PM

~ Tuesday, December 14, 2004

i worry too much. now im worrying about me worrying. cant sleep due to my worries. i worry to much until i dont even know wad the hell i am worrying about. i have short term memories, typical me.

ws was depressed 1:07 AM

~ Friday, December 10, 2004

stars are great to stare at. was gazing at some stars just now and i happened to spot orion's belt. its just too sad i tat couldn't see the orion constellation as a whole. s'pore's a bad place for star gazers, its just too bright. i have always wanted to travel around the world like wad my father did before. i would find a perfect spot on a mountain to gaze at the stars. i may be alone then for no one would wanna follow me along with my crazy ideas, haha. if i could, i would go to nepal 1st. the place where hungry children live. there i will camp at the himalayers and hopefully experience the bitter taste of snow storms. tat will be one day of my life.

ws was depressed 1:14 AM

~ Tuesday, December 07, 2004

im gonna kick their ass if their website's gonna post something negative. nevermind, it cant be helped anyway. if im 18, i would buy back volka like mad. gotta wait 6 more months. my father bought me 1 bottle, i haven even touch it yet. nothing to do, complaining all day makes me sick. dec holidays can be sickening too. sometimes school days can be better. but nothing beats holidays still. if our life miserable or should i say am i the only one who's miserable? too many things to think about and im gonna have a headache soon.

ws was depressed 11:15 PM

~ Monday, December 06, 2004

dec holidays may sometimes be a bit boring. but at least i could stay at home and watch animax all day. no ones at home now to bug me about anything. my parents aren't at home, my sisters are out. it would be annoying if they were all here. never mind, im gonna sleep now.

ws was depressed 2:07 PM

~ Saturday, December 04, 2004

for some questions, there aren't any answers...

ws was depressed 1:47 PM

~ Friday, December 03, 2004

maybe im being too paranoid. but i just dont have the guts to ask. even at this time, sleeping is not possible for me. cant sleep if i were to think too much. looking outside through my window, i can see a moon covered by the mist of the clouds. tat causes the moon to fade and thus not much light can be seen. this goes the same for my situation. there seems to be an invisible barrier between them and me. this barrier causes misundestanding between us. without the barrier, they would know the truth of wad i have to say. just like if the clouds weren't there to block the moon, the light emitted would be brighter. if im a thorn if a flesh to them, i would gladly severe ties with them and go my own way. but, will tat really happen? when tat time comes, will i have the guts to do tat? im so dissapointed with myself... for landing in a situation like this.

ws was depressed 1:15 AM